Heartbreak sucks. It hurts so badly and I can’t even express it properly because it’s such a fucking cliche. That feeling of having someone you cherish take your heart and put it through a meat grinder – I mean, it’s safe to say that most people have that experience under their belt. Continue reading “Ramblings from a broken heart”
It has been a particularly rough couple of months. I’m dealing with a lot of personal problems, which leaves me too exhausted to even play with my cat. I’ve been feeling physically and emotionally drained.
My anxiety even came calling a few times, striking whether I was hard at work or chilling at home. Same symptoms as before: palpitations and shortness of breath.
In one particular incident, I spent half of my shift at work thinking of every possible awful thing that could happen. My mind raced with terrible thoughts of losing everything I had, all that I hold dear. I couldn’t focus, I was panicky, I felt weak and dizzy – it went on for hours.
I just turned 26. My boyfriend likes to say how I’m closer to 30 than 20, and that pisses me off.
How does one be in a loving, healthy relationship without sabotaging it?
Honestly, I don’t know how people do it. I try my best to be trusting, to be loving – but I often feel like I fail. My boyfriend reassures me constantly that I’m wonderful, that I deserve happiness; still, I feel remarkably undeserving of his affections. Continue reading “How do you let yourself be loved when you feel unlovable?”
My birthday is less than a month away, and I’m stoked!
My boyfriend certainly plays a big part in why I look forward to this year’s birthday.
Our first date happened to fall on my birthday last year. He picked me up and took me out for a dinner date at The Frazzled Cook in Quezon City. Continue reading “Birth-yay!”